So it appears I haven’t written in a while. I’ve been feeling quite apathetic about humanity lately, and this is due to alienation, which in my case as a Sirian star seed is the literal truth.
I of course have had to deal with feeling alienated throughout this entire incarnation, although it was much more difficult to deal with when I was younger, since I had not awakened yet, and no one else had any idea either.
This alienation has caused me to make certain decisions that humans perceive to be linked with depression, but this has never been the case.
I was an athlete growing up, and there were several times when I quit sports teams even though I was a top performer. I simply could not stand to be around others who displayed aggressive behavior and focused so much on the dualistic aspect of sports—winning versus simply playing to have a beneficial experience.
I have very little tolerance for immature behavior, and it seems the majority of humans in America are still very immersed in aggressive activities that mainly involve debauchery and dualistic competition, especially of the physical nature.
Of course where this leads me to next is the recent Super Bowl. Even as a Baltimore native (the Baltimore Ravens were the victors), it was impossible for me to participate in this type of event knowing it is merely a mass Satanic ritual, an energetic feast for the dark cabal that is still in control of this planet.
It was painful for me to see so many others participating in this modernized gladiatorial event like sheep, branding themselves with jerseys of their favorite false idol corporate employees, many of them being members of secret societies and criminals who have been let off the hook due to their wealth and status.
Even with that aspect aside, the mere capitalism of it all is abhorrent, and if the obvious demonic ritual half-time show by the Illuminati pawn Beyonce wasn’t enough to wake people up, I don’t even want to fathom what more it would take.
It is impossible for me to watch mainstream media and not see the obvious dark influence behind it all, but it seems most others are still caught up in the illusion, and at this point I really do not care. This is not out of hatred or racism, but simply objective understanding that people will wake up when they are ready.
I have learned long ago there is no saving anyone; there is only serving as a wayshower and opening the door for others if they ask you to.
Just like in Star Trek, the prime directive is not to interfere with the development of another species, and in this case, it is not my place to interfere with the free will of the human species.
As a star seed I am here as an emissary of light, and my role along with facilitating the process of ascension on planet Earth is to share my experiences living among humans with the Sirian collective.
It can be said this job is similar to that of an anthropologist, and of course there is no better way to gather data than to live among the indigenous populace, but as I mentioned earlier, it comes with the cost of being isolated from home.
While I do get homesick at times, I was selected for this duty because I am good at working independently and remaining unemotional—and this doesn’t mean lacking compassion, it simply means remaining objective in order to perform the task at hand.
Here are some notes I received from a download today:
The function of the ego is to provide a subjective perspective for the avatar (incarnated entity). The ego complements the avatar.
The ego is the character of the avatar. It is the package of traits that define the avatar. It is the subjective perspective of the avatar.
To function detached from ego is to function from an objective perspective.
The purpose of having an ego is to provide an individual experience for an avatar.
What is considered human, besides the biological characteristics, is to have an ego. This is why people say humans are imperfect, they make mistakes, etc., because it is only through ego, subjective perspective, that one can view themselves as imperfect, as separate from Source.
The real problem on Earth is that people confuse their ego with their soul. This is why so many people are superficial and care so much about their physical appearance and impressing others. It is this disconnection that creates division, thus inequality and the perpetuation of a class system.